Hopeful.

There would be days when I feel so lonely and scared realizing I may end up not married. But I always thought it’s better not to get married than to rush into it because I was so afraid of being alone. I am not in pursuit of a marital status though. I simply want to be happy where I am right now and wherever I’m heading to.

Goin through the motions.

 It’s really damn hard when you learn to care for somebody and you start building your dreams around him. What’s even harder is when you realize that he was NOT with you in all your journey.

For the past weeks I’ve been into different emotional stages. One day I’m happy, the next day I’m not. It has been my comfort zone that I find myself not even bothered about how things, situations and people affect me…to the point of taking the best out of me.

I’m trying to put it all behind me.  I’m putting up a strong front. I would not let something like that smack me down. I can get myself out of this.

Heck, maybe I should give myself a lil more credit. I can still pick myself up, all it takes is a little more TIME and when I’m alive again, wounds will be healed. I’d be capable of loving and trusting again.